It sure didn't take me long to get dressed to go and my friend was right down the road so I could leave quickly and walk there before Pa changed his mind.
When I got to Patty's house there were several girls from school there preparing to go. But, what I found out is we weren't going to the movies at all. They all had a very big crush on a man in town. I had no idea who this man was and after finding out that we would not be going to the movies I automatically felt like I was going to be in big big trouble. But, they all talked me into going and this would be the first time I would ever go anywhere that wasn't approved and or monitored. Ok, I admit, there was a part of me that felt adventurous about it. Ok, I said it !!
We got a ride the the movies by Patty's mom and as soon as she was out of sight we took a walk down the road. Not having any idea where I was going. It wasn't far from the movies and we were at this man's house. I do mean man. He was 10 years our elder. All these girls were in love with him. They were all done up with hot clothes and make up and seemed like they had a plan. I though, felt very uncomfortable. I really did not belong in the place or fit in with this crowd I should say. So, I sat on the couch in the other room from what
seemed to be a party going on. I was pretty sure this party consisted of drugs as well. Everybody seemed to be excited about several items being exchanged among them.
As I sat there quietly and with hopes that I was invisible I watched my friends all flirting with this man they were all in love with. But, as I look up I see him coming toward me. Oh my heart began to speed. I had no idea how to speak to people. My hands sweating like crazy. Please, Please, Please don't talk to me I prayed to myself. Don't come over here. But, as my luck would have it there he was and he sat down next to me. He seemed very calm and polite. Asked me my name and said he knew my sister Shelli. Shelli was rarely home it seemed and had a group she hung with. As for me I was not allowed to speak to any of them or she would pull my hair out, and I do mean that literally. So it was important this man not tell her that he saw me there and he gave me his word.
What I was thinking was going to be a hi turned out to be hours. He never went back into the other room where my friends were and I was really beginning to get uneasy about it. They were the ones that were so in love with him. I did not know him and had no intention of knowing him. But, as the night went on he asked me if I would take a walk with him down the road. Not knowing what to say I did. So we walked and talked for another few hours and finally ended up back at his house. By this time it was time to get back to the movie theater for Patty's mom to pick us up. As we were about to leave Cliff offered to meet me after school some time so we could talk more. I did find him easy to talk with for some odd reason and accepted his offer to meet in a few days after school.
This night would prove another small step toward some sort of normalcy or what I was hoping it to be. I actually spent hours talking and walking with a man. I thought I was going to die when he approached me but soon after I found myself at ease and it felt good. I could only anticipate this was what the normal people did.
We made it back to the movies in time and back home when I said I would be. There was my father waiting as I knew he would be. I was sure had I been late, no excuse would have been a good one. Being that I have never done anything like this before and I mean lying I was now feeling quilty about not being where I said I would be. But, as luck would have it, he never asked me what the movie was about. So, I didn't have to say or explain anything. Were my stars changing? Oh, not to dwell to hard on that. Just breathe and go to bed.
Come morning I was signing up for a work program through school. I would go to school half a day and work the other half. I wanted this very badly so I would be able to buy some clothes. My clothes. My very own clothes. Did I say buy my very own clothes? Tomorrow would be a good day as I lay me down to sleep.
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Love "Patches"
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