Awwww now that was a real nice rest. Hmmmm, I'm looking around and see, yep, Ma and Sis and yep yep there is my Bro. Ahhhhhhhh, over there in some other room is that man that I think is my Pa. He seems to be busy watching something on some other funny looking contraption. He seems to be very serious. Oh well, I think I want a bottle now. How do I get anybody's attention? Hmmmm...I know, I will try this..... I heard myself do this before, let's see if I can do it again? Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...sniff sniff... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!! Hmmm nobody is coming yet. Ok, I will try again. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa sniff sniff......
Ahhhhhh Mama....I knew you would be here soon. Hmmmmm Smiling now. Awwwwwwww!!
Oh here comes my Pa. Ohhh he sure doesn't look happy with me. Maybe he isn't my Pa. "Hey Joe, why don't you pick her up and hold her a while?" "She is your daughter ya know?" Ok, so now I know he is my Papa. Ouch!! I am not sure what many words are or mean but that hurt. He yanked me, I believe is the term and squished my arm. Wow I am thinking as we look into each other's eyes. Something just doesn't feel very loving here. Not like all the others. He doesn't seem to like me. Well, it's ok, he will. How could he not. Heheheh I am cute and adorable. "What's wrong with you Joe?" She is a baby. Put her back in her crib if that is how you are going to be. I wasn't sure what my Mama was meaning but Ouch again. Ahhh he just didn't know my head was so close to this rail I am sure of it.
After he laid me back down he walked away without a smile,without a hug and without a kiss. Oh, I think, this is the journey I chose and well,I have to finish it now. Where will we go now? How does this journey proceed?
The years have gone by very fast and well now I am five years old. I am a bit altered in my humor now as these five years were not a lot of fun. I find myself hiding in corners and being made to go to them. I shy away from everybody that comes around. My head always seems to hang low. I feel ashamed for some reason and I so fear to say or do anything. I learned something about what my Ma and Pa constantly keep calling a switch. Although they all do not look the same. Some look like parts of trees, some have hard, very hard things attached to them. So, I stay quiet and in the corner most of the time.
The Christmas's that have gone by seemed like a pretty fun event. Everybody opening what they call presents. As I watched , it was like watching somebody's family from some far off place. From the outside looking in, yet I was right there. However, something, some how made me invisible. Yea, it all made me feel sad yet happy when I watched my brother opened so many gifts and ohhh he was so happy. My sister got gifts too but well not as many as my brother it seemed. I do remember getting some food though. My Mama was pretty good at seeing to it I was fed. But, it didn't seem that my Pa really liked that. Hmm, just can't understand. Maybe when I grow up some more I will get the missing pieces here to this now complicated puzzle.
"Love Patches"
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