Memories of the Past

I'm sitting here listening to my playlist. Damn, it couldn't be more captivating at times. Every song has its own memory of the past. They are like snap shots, hmm yes in the mind but maybe even more so in the heart. Many of the older ones remind me of my ma ma...(rest her soul) many of the others simply remind me of my very own walk. I think memories have some sort of life form. It triggers emotions that happened so so very many years ago. Yet, they can seem so alive today. Is the past ever the past?

 Ask somebody about their past and you will always hear how bad it was. Yes, we all have a sad story to tell. But why is that the part that goes with most of us. I wont compete with you which one of us got beaten the most. That part of my past has been incinerated. Those other memories, the ones that touched my soul are the ones that I carry and will carry to the end. The ones I wish I could repeat over and over and over again.

 Unlike the VCR we cant rewind and replay. Once we record it, its done. Be it good or bad, its done. For me, my recording studio seems to be at a standstill. Most everybody I have recorded memories with are now up in heaven. Some times I still wish they were still here to even record bad memories with them just to have new ones. For now though it is just keeping the memories I have in my heart alive........................Ahhh, if you read this you must be bored but thanks for hanging in there...LOL

If we were kicked back 100 years....could we survive?

                             If we were kicked back 100 years..could we survive?

The art of survival is just about gone. We rely on everything and somebody to get through our day. No matter what it is. But what would happen if we totally lost our electric? Just that alone would be critical for Americans. Would we know how to heat the house without burning it down? Would we still have bacon and eggs for breakfast? Oh my, no tv..now what? But, hey, lets go even further...NO INTERNET. Now we know we are doomed. I want some toast with butter and jam. 

Hmmm, I am at a loss. How is this bread made? Butter and jam..is it possible? Oh, I see that chicken across the yard. Yes, that is what I want for supper. But wait, its actually alive with a head and feathers. What the heck do I do with that? I guess the wing night is over. This little chap only has two wings. What are we to do with that? Well, night is upon me and I have no light. None. No candles, no oil lamps and no way to get to a store. There is no gas for cars and I havent obtained a horse or donkey yet to get around. The walk to a store would be at least a two week trip. How did they do it all way back WHEN? 

They knew how to do everything. We have become so laxed that if we were kicked back in time ... how would we do? After some time I am sure we would find a way but until then we would have to survive some how. The art of survival appears to be a memory or a chapter in a history book. I cant help wonder if this is good for us.Or maybe the other countries that are truly humbled are actually ahead of us in many more meaningful ways. 

Just a thought!!! Hugs...."The Ma Ma "

*Alert * Narcissistic Sociopath--Please read !! Part 1

Welcome to part one of an ongoing series of Narcissistic Sociopaths.....ALERT !!

If you have ever come across a Narcissistic Sociopath and know it now, it will be very highly unlikely you will ever wonder if, you ever have for the rest of your life. It will change your view of everybody you have ever met and know in your life. You will review in your mind every moment you have had with certain people to determine if they may be. This has got to be a revelation though for YOUR healing to know, you did nothing wrong. It isn't you. Never was. And my dear, you never stood a chance. These people are very very scary. To think there are people like this among us is completely a freaky thought, yet a very important awakening. We look at this label, most of us and think, "Oh that means your crazy" or simply have a mental illness. We don't do the research to dig deeper about who and what these people are all about. 

The people are master liars !! MASTERS !! They cannot help themselves. They lie about everything, why? We do not know and my guess is they do not know either. They have no remorse. NONE... They will take everything you have and walk away. Never look back and consider themselves the "VICTIM". They will never say sorry or thank you. They will immediately move on to their next victim and that very well may be YOU..

We need to educate ourselves about these people that walk and live among us. People who have:

1) No remorse

2) No feelings - They do not know how to love or be loved

3) No conscious- Is this concerning? Your answer should be YES. If your answer is NO, perhaps you may be one of these in this group.

The are highly intelligent. HIGHLY, they study the normal people. You and Me and everybody else that ever comes into their life. They study us to mimic us. They have no idea how we do it. What we do. They see us happy and in love. Kissing,holding hands, crying and laughing. They look at us in wonder and wonder what we are doing and they see it is a good thing and want to fit in with us. So, they study us intently so they can fit into our world. 

They master this so very well that we, if we have no clue about these people believe they are the most honest and trustworthy people in all the world. They appear to be so very sincere with all they say. Please note the 

word..."APPEAR". Most of us would never suspect their true intentions to do us a whole lot of harm and that every word spoken is a lie. But let's remember, they are master liars and they do this without blinking an eye. 

If you have had a partner relationship with a Narcissistic Sociopath and it ends, you will beat yourself up and your only question you will ask is , why? This happened so fast you won't know what hit you until it's over and the best thing you can do is run , do not walk away from this person. Run, and never look back. Oh you will want to. Just because this person has altered your life in every way and won't blink an eye as they walk on. Hopefully and I do mean hopefully, you will get away from this person before your life is totally ruined including you in general.

This is part one of several series as we need to have awareness of these people we walk with in our world. Part two will be about YOU and how that whatever happened, you did not know it was coming. Do not tear yourself apart or waste your time with the big question of why. When we get done with this series you will know why and your heart and soul will be cleansed and healthy. Until then...... BE THANKFUL IT'S OVER and if you are in this situation RIGHT NOW....... GO, LEAVE, RUN AND DON'T LOOK BACK.

LOVE TO ALL---------"THE MAMA"

If you do nothing else..
Ask Mama Now

The Road Less Traveled

The Road Less Traveled 

June 7, 2009 at 2:46pm

Where is this road going? I cant see... there are way to many obstacles blocking my view. The clouds are hovering overhead and about to burst open with hail stones...good thing I am never without excedrin, I fear I am going to be in need of them soon. The branches are all hitting me. What the hell is going on?? Right, just what I need a fork in the road. Which way do I go? I want this path to be straight and narrow... now what and why??? 

 How do I decide left, right or continue going forward? DAMN.............. No clue... ok I must eliminate...going forward has been good but has brought me to these cross roads..... going left just seems wrong.... AHHHHHH, I GOT IT... I GOT IT.. I WILL CHOOSE TO GO RIGHT....FOR GOING THE RIGHT WAY...YES, THIS IS THE ANSWER.. ALWAYS GO RIGHT.....AHH...this is beautiful,,,weeping willows all lining the road...awesome view...flowers all bloom. OH NO...damn, i am headed toward the storm...ouch....OUCH........ these hailstones must weigh 10 pounds each. Why, why...........???? I am so glad I have the excedrin cause surely I need them now. Maybe turning right wasnt a good idea after all... it seemed to be the " RIGHT" way to go. Finally, whew the storm is over....wow,I almost didnt make it through that one. 

OH my goodness there is the most beautiful rainbow I have ever seen. Every color in it. A blessing just to have this opportunity to see such a beautiful sight. Oh, why, how, could I have ever doubted it... I have always been going in the correct direction, just didn't always know it. Yes, this is indeed the right way............ adventurous for sure..rocky along the way, painful too....my head still hurts...but no doubt, this is MY JOURNEY I am supposed to take...and the road I am suppose to travel...

Peace and Love....Light and Joy and much HOPE to all..!!!

HUGS, Love, The Ma Ma

The Garden of My Heart !!

The garden within my heart!! 

10 months ago

I believe our hearts are a garden we have and keep within. As we grew and continue to grow we allow weeds into it and OMG sometimes thorns. As we do our walk in life many take a piece of our hearts and if your lucky there is a special one that can take it all cleaning  the weeds out throughly.  When we take a look back way to many times we ponder how and why we allowed certain ones to enter into our garden. At the beginning we may have got that feeling of caution. But some how, they entered and had their way. Dancing all over our garden with deceit, lies,games,selfishness. The thorns are ten times worse.  They,being the weeds and thorns, dance about with ease and no remorse as they take a piece of the garden inch by inch and slaughter it. 

We feel dark,empty and beaten by the time they are done. Yet, they still have no concern for all the damage they have done. Simply put, with their selfish ways they think its all ok. They go on about their way to find another garden to trash. Its a relief though when they go, because it is then we can stop,sort it out, toss it out and  hope for a tree of life to find its way in and claim the garden as its own. Showing light and love !!! A tree so big and fertilized so well no more weeds or thorns will ever be able to enter into our garden again.  It must be very lonely for these weeds and thorns to keep having to go from garden to garden . They will never know of a garden of paradise because the soil they have is tainted. Yeah, a very very small piece of my heart to you. Those who will never see the light of love that solely lives and comes from the garden within our hearts. 

 Love to ya all............."The Mama"

Me and My Lobster.......

If you are lucky enough to find one lobster that is your soul mate you are one of the lucky ones. But, how lucky must you be to find another lobster in one lifetime? Pretty lucky. With the web it makes it possible to search the world over. And, if you had one lobster you know what and who you are looking for. This search is NOT an easy task and you might even think it isn't possible to find. You even consider aborting the mission after you email and text 5,324 times. 

Then, suddenly it is as if the universe as heard you and your lobster just suddenly arrives. Now the coolest part of this is.....you just know it!! You know this is the one and all the time you have spent searching for your lobster it's OVER. Your lobster knows your heart, your soul and the connection is beyond what can be imagined, yet not, because you did have it before and you know how its supposed to feel. I found my lobster.... he is EVERYTHING I have been looking for.

Mmmmm, his heart is pure, the glimmer in his eyes is heaven. It shows his inner self and how the white light shines through him. He knows how to take your hand and journey to the end. He holds your heart and knows how fragile it is and comforts it with the utmost love and care. This lobster of mine has my heart and     all the love that has been stored in it for him. 

He has no idea how loved he is going to be but I think he will be happy. Our story is just beginning, our journey is just taking flight, but inside our hearts we know we are the  one for each other and finally we SMILE again. Honey, take my hand.......the adventure is about to begin and the journey can take us any where but being together is what will make it the very best. I LOVE YOU.......MY LOBSTER forever and ever and ever.......................... XOXOXOXOXOXO

YOUR LOBSTER

A Fleeting Moment In Time.....

A Moment in Time       

Time goes by so very very fast...and time gives us many different experiences. During our time we have laughed, cried, hugged, liked, loved. The list can go on and on and on. Our "TO DO" list seems very small compared to our "DONE" list. Our moments of experiences can be short, medium or long. Yep, our moments come in sizes. 

There is even an extra short time called the "FLEETING" moment. As fleeting as these moments may be, they can leave a very profound memory. Fleeting moments usually attack the heart in some way. They must, they have to get in and out quick and they know it, because they know it is a fleeting moment in time. It does seem that the universe is cruel for doing these things or has a very morbid sense of humor. That I am sure the scientists are still studying about.

 All these moments leave impressions on the heart...but when one thinks about the fleeting ones...one may begin to ponder... how...why... and how..... and why..... and HOW could this happen? Has somebody ever touched your heart in such a way, it leaves you wondering how they got in so fast. You had your guard up. But in this fleeting moment ... you smiled..almost constantly and prayed nobody saw you cause you were smiling with nobody around.....LOL For this flickering piece in time, your heart felt warm and touched by a shining light of happiness. 

Yeah, Yeah, OK..the kind that makes you feel that alive feeling you had been missing for what seems like forever. In this moment comes this very undescribable feeling. You dont know what it is for sure but you do know you LIKE it. Some times we need to take these fleeting moments and treasure them the most because they were there for such a short time and WOW... left their mark.

 Yes, my heart has been touched and for just a fleeting moment in time. But, I am thankful for this fleeting moment because of the feeling it gave me. This feeling will be marked into my journel of moments in time but it will be kept in my heart where it attacked me at. Although, the smiling is gone and replaced with a much lesser desired feeling like sadness...I feel blessed for my moment as fleeting as it was.

 Many blessed moments come in small increments but can last a life time. My wish for all is that you can remember a moment that made you happy and keep that moment close with you ALWAYS.... for they come and go as the speed of light. God Bless you all.. this moment and the next and for ALWAYS........and thank you for spending THIS moment in time with me.............

Love, "The Ma Ma

Hey Guys... I think I have a new method... Yep

Hey Guys...I think I have a new method.... 

Ok, ok, ok...you really do have to hear about this. I was so impressed with myself. Anybody that has read my journals knows that I have issues with all the yard crap that you men have a morse code with for starting. Sure, once this code is figured out, yes, then we pull the string. HAHAHAHAHAH SO, SO VERY FUNNY. Ok, well, I got an electric leaf blower. I had to get an electric one because what ya all have going on with strings and codes if simply rediculous. I hope I am not the first one to give you this bad news. But, if I am, well somebody had to do it. So, here it is, I know you just cant wait for me to tell ya. Uh huh, just sitting there waiting. Arent cha????? Yes, this is what I have been doing with all the garden stuff ya all have that is so great that one is barely breathing if ya get it started at all. OK, so, I have as many leaves in my yard as we are with our national deficit. That is many.....as we can all imagine. My gutters were once again full of these beautiful little things. I knew they were claiming war...they were coming down like crazy. Attacking me with vengence. I knew I had to be armed and dangerous when I went to the roof. So, I prepared. I took the leaf blower eliminator..heheheh.... Hey, I couldnt go empty handed or with a little garden tool for this job. They outnumbered me by the thousands. I am now proud to announce, they flew off the roof. Yeah, some swirled and thought of coming back, but no, I would not hear of it. For those ones, I simply blew they away even more. With this technique the job took way less then half the time it would normally take. You dont have to hang on the edge of the roof. Just aim, stand back and let the eliminator do the work for you. OK, I know ya all are going to LOVE this. As I perfect yard techniques I will share them with ya...so we can all have a beautiful yard with way less work involved so we have more time to be on tagged. LOL OK Ya all.... I am going to see what else I can come up with to ease of work life........

Hugs to you all.............Love "The Ma Ma"

If You Do Nothing Else !!!

If You Do Nothing Else !!!

This is one of most important things to me if not the most. When we are growing up we go through all the motions of kidhood and teenhood....BUT, soon you realize you are almost what they call an adult. So many things have happened already along the way and they now seemed to have happened very quickly. What once seemed like forever to get there is now here. As this time was coming fast on me I had many concerns but the one that seemed to take me over is ..."WHO AM I?" I felt a very strong need to find out about me. I searched my heart then my soul.... I had to know what I am about so I could live and be happy within my own temple. As I searched some things I tossed out and some things I kept. Much like cleaning your house and truly I was. I have learned this has been important from that moment on...sort and toss.Keep what is valuable to take with you. Along the way I have met people who want to change me. They would like me to dye my hair or dress in a way that suits them, just to mention a few simple things. Hmmm, I say. So, I think..... and maybe some times think a little longer about it..and then here is my conclusion. If you don't like me as I am then you never liked me to begin with. I will not and cannot become who or what you want me to be. If I choose to let you change me then one day I will look in the mirror and wonder who is this person. I don't know you. Know, I would not ever ask you to change anything about you. If I do, you will lose yourself,your soul ... It would be best to walk away...and I would let you go so you can be who you are and I me. Somebody will love us and all of us just as we are. Never sell your soul.......Never lose yourself. When we look in the mirror we can smile and know what lies inside our sacred heart and that alone is HAPPINESS!!!

Be yourself.............YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ALWAYS!!!!!!!! HUGS TO YOU ALL!!

Love, "The Ma Ma"